..::la de da//
Thursday, July 6, 2000
02:51 p.m.
today, what the hell did i do today? well, let me think... just about nothing i suppose. i slept a bit, played with my cats, tried to learn a flip, surfed, downloaded icq, but nothing too exciting. i also made marshmellowless smores. that was because i didnt have an marshmellows. and i watched two things on history channel. one was about hitler and the other about anistasia. both were questioning the where abouts of someone. the hitler thing was on eva hitler. hmm... why is there so much debate about whether it was her body they burnt or not? they are certain she commited suicide so what did they do? hide her body and kill another woman to be put to rest with her husband? does that make any sense at all to you? well, im trying to change my website but i think ill do it later. i get off in two minutes and so i guess thats all i care saying.
..::running ink//
Thursday, July 6, 2000
08:12 a.m.
ok, i noted that my entries keep running together and that the html codes are all messed up. so i checked, and checked, and double checked, and its not an error by my. anyone else getting this at their pitas??
..::what a cute monk//
july.6.00
7.52 a.m.
::sigh:: im sorry. i havent written lately. well, actualy, i have. but not as recently as i should, even if no one ever reads this horrible thing. maybe thats why i write in it so often. its more private then if it was not on the computer. everyone in my family knows about it, and they read it sometimes, too. but they dont get as much joy out of it. ha. well, that may be mostly because i have such a boring life. i like it that way. call me old, but i like sitting and staring at the ceiling. i can do that for hours. and i do. and i like watching the history channel or a&e or discovery. and i dont listen to music. nope, i take that back. im listening to a japanese song right now. i have no clue of its origins or anything, but it sounds like something disney. i dont know why, just has a disneyish feel to it. its from a game, i guess. one of those rpgs. and no more al. nope, im saying goodbye to al capone as an obsession and making him just some guy i look up to because i love his hat.
a convo with my dad last night (or morning, i cant remember...)
me: youre getting a cd burner?
dad: yeah, and tomorrow im pick up the cable modem.
me: CABLE MODEM?!! what cable modem?
dad: im getting a cable modem.
me: how come no one told me?!
dad: you were sleeping.
me: oh. well, ok.
dad: yeah, and with the cd burner, you can store lots of cds.
me: yeah, but i dont listen to music, so it doesnt effect me much.
dad: yeah, but you can store information, too.
me: oh! oh! i can burn al capones fbi record!
dad: forget about him, research the kennidys! go way way back and youll be suprised at everything youll find.
me: ::nod::
dad: yeah, they were bootleggers.
me: yeah, dad, everyone knows that.
dad: yeah, but research them.
me: no, dad, its the hat. al has the coolest hat.
dad: oh, should i get a hat like that, then?
me: only if you give it to me.
ok, so, in the process of writing that, i kind of forgot what the point was... anyway... my favorite jeans have a hole right under the back pocket. see, i took this picture of it! just now! while i was writing this. yep, i took a picture of my butt. hmm... i think i need to fix that, but theres no way to patch over it because theres already that one patch right there and i dont want to sew it... maybe ill find a way to sew a bandana patch underneath without the sewing showing through to the other side. i know! super glue! super glue will work. lol.
see!!!
ok, um, and i got my sister off the computer. whoo hoo. um, well, im going to go im myself. someone else can, too. i am just really bored. maybe a perv will im me so i can be all like 'what am i wearing? a spandex pair of overalls made of peanut butter.' muhahaha. thats always fun. oh! i write way more in my german journal, but no one can really read it because its bad german, since i dont even speak that. and its not english. so, um, yeah. thats here, not here. yeah. bye.
..::bite me//
Tuesday, July 4, 2000
05:21 a.m.
well, go look, i got done with my new layout. its really colorful. its pretty early, huh? i stayed up this long, but i slept basicly all day. theres a stalker guy outside, if anyone cares. he was trying to get into my borthers car and then was watching jesse from behind a tree. hm... should bother me more. i went to i85.net to try and get a shorter url but everything is taken. how evil. well, thats it i guess. im me, ok?
..::black tie//
Monday, July 3, 2000
08:08 p.m.
er! my brother is now dominating this computer! for the longest time, months even, he didnt. now, he is. grrr... i have to let him on in two hours, giving me two hours on the computer. he was on this morning for a while, the ass. god i hate him. hes so evil. and my dads letting him. so thats really not fair. its like they are working together to ruin my life. three more people and it would be a conspiresy, except spelled correctly. grr... im feedng terri at the moment. better go plop that in her cage...
Monday, July 3, 2000
05:03 a.m.
everyone, i am now part of elfwood. whoo hoo!
..::6 mb//
Sunday, July 2, 2000
08:12 a.m.
the whole capone file is divided into 36 downloads. they take forever to download, too. i have 4 so far. and i have to pick up more paper so i can print more. i only have about 3 hundred sheets... i need three thousand. almost, not entirly. its 2,397... anyway, maybe ill do that. im downloading two more files. this is going to take forever! and i need paper. half of it i cant even read. my moms taking me up to see the real copy on file with the fbi. maybe its clearer. doubt it, though. how exactly do they read it? thats what im wondering. i didnt sleep too good last night. i slept on the couch and my brother slept in the living room too. he talks in his sleep. stupid dick hole. i hope he misses work and gets fired and all his stuff repossessed. hes evil. his car wouldnt start last night. ::snicker::
..::cloud nine//
Saturday, July 1, 2000
09:48 p.m.
oh! im so happy right now. im just very pleasant. even though my family people came back from the picnic and im not in silence anymore, im still happy because im currently printing al capones fbi record. its on econo fast so my computer is lagging a bit, but its still great. well, technicaly, its only the first 77 pages. thats all that i downloaded so far, in order anyway. it took like two hours. i just had to put more paper in. then it caneled print so i had to count all the pages i had and blah. but, back in bussiness now. whoo hoo. i looked all over the net for his file but i found it at the fbi homepage. i dont know why i didnt look there in the first place. the fbi is so cool for having him there. i cant make out half of it though. too bad computers werent around decades ago. but really, boot legging was a really bad idea. but i guess they figured that out by now. but i dont care. i cant drink anyway. well, i can. just not anything with alcohol. like right now im drinking pepsi. i dont really like pepsi, but you know. its there. its going to rot my teeth. i dont care because i am getting alphose capones record. whoo hoo! someone im me, ok? im just sitting here printing. want to know why capone probably became a criminal? when he was like ten, his shoe shine stand was destroyed by some kids cause they were envious and then he went to the police and they just pushed him away and didnt even help him. then he lost all respect fro police. dude, it would be awesoem to have such a long fbi file, huh? but that would also mean a lot of people would be out to get you, so maybe not that cool. but it definitly is impressive. i wonder what the longest fbi record is on a single person? probably bill clintons. lol. no, thats a stupid joke. probably not. they have very good methods of ditching evidence now. well, thats it.
..::aaaaand they'ree off!//
Saturday, July 1, 2000
07:09 a.m.
funny stuff, the whole downloading process. its just like a race if you download two at a time. ::in cheesy announcer voice:: capone1c.pdf is in the lead with 28%, staggering slightly ahead of capone1a.pdf. rounding the third tenth, here they go, here they go... both from the home town of foia.fbi.gov. ::cough:: ok, i guess i made my point. you think the fbi people would learn to zip their files. they just really dont want you to know. its been forever trying to find the right file. well, not forever. only a few minutes. see, i went to foia.fbi.gov and right away clicked on the link for the famous persons. and im looking down, no capone. well, maybe, if he was under scarface. but i didnt see him. i was so mad! grrr! but then i went into the bigger listing and found him. i was going to send them an email being all like "dude! list capone! hes my god!" but i thought they might be all like "threat to secrurity. worships the most powerful gangster in history (because he is!!)' and that would go into some kind of file... like my sisters file from school even says stufff like how she bit her nails. i was going to send them a letter to request the first 100 pages of capones record, but then i found this page. plus, i wrote it and im like 'dad, do you have a stamp?' and he says 'for what?' and i say 'a letter' and he says 'to who?' and i say 'um, er, the fbi.' he wouldnt even give me a stamp. *hmmph* ok, let me get this straight while we are on the subject of the government. im not an anarchist. i see all the corruption, but i love it. its great. except for the whole khallid thing, that is. but i dont blame that on the fbi. its the stupid white trash hicks up here. anyway, one day i want to work for the gov. that would be cool. i mean, i have very low morals when it comes to sucking up, blackmail, playing mind games, all that fun stuff. i do that just for fun most of the time. not the blackmail, though. maybe if i actualy used the dirt i had. i just stick it all in my box. my secret secret box. well, not that secret. thats where i keep peoples souls. muhahahaha. well, no, not really. i kind of despise this journal thing. i always come out sounding like a prep or a goth or perky. im not. i dont know exactly what category i fall into, but its not any of those three. its actualy 7:45 now. thats how long ive been writing this. casey, my kitten is here. hes so evil. ah, i love him. he just sits there and pouts, though. and hell look at you all like grrrr. well, whatever.
..::poiting finger//
Saturday, July 1, 2000
12:05 a.m.
its my fault, you know. for the whole name zero thing, that was me. i got 23 domains on one email account and they probably noticed. then they looked at the pages and saw none of them had their ads. then they viewed source, or maybe found it all the places i posted it, like envy.nu and the many people ive emailed it to. im sorry, everyone. i didnt know. i am. im sorry.
..::slash//
Saturday, July 1, 2000
12:05 a.m.
my heart is broken. all my dreams are crushed. i thank this all to namezero. i loved their service, ecspecialy with the code that could get the rechid banner off, but they caught on, and now, now the code is no more. im really upset. really. please, if you are up for the challenge of banner killing, please contact me or im me. you cant use html anymore to kill it. javascript or ftp, though. help. help.
..::pull me//
Friday, June 30, 2000
11:26 p.m.
i was so scared! it was horrible. i was helping my little brother make his pitas, slick_wicked, and i was also working on mine and mine turned into his. it was horrible. i hope no one came during that time. no one did, did they? i hope not. im giving out free email forwarding. you@amandaforpresident.com you just really want that, right? well, email me for more information. im supposed to be working on jesses site, but im too tramatized. is anyone whos viewing this on aim or aol? if you are, im bored, so im me, ok? thanks, i appriciate it. tomorrow i get to relax. everyones going to my aunts picnic but im just staying home. ::sigh:: its going to be so peaceful. well, off to work on my site now.
..::family for sale//
Friday, June 30, 2000
04:43 p.m.
seems like my brothers car wont start. muhahaha. he just bought it, too. ah, damn, nevermind. hes taking my dad to the store to go food shopping. my sisters going too to get a bathing suit for tomorrows picnic. every year thers one but im not going. its really boring. plus, ill have the hwhole house to my self tomorrow since everyone will be away at my aunts. whoo hoo. three whole bedrooms to pretend are mine. my little brother just cleaned his. we were eating dinner today and he was pressing my ant button. he was really annoying. i guess thats why older sisters are big enoguh to pound their little twirp heads in. im talking to john right now on aim. hes pretty cool. and whats amazing, hes proof that not all guys suck. i know, i know, hard to believe, but true. hes so eerily nice. im doing the al capone layout. i love him so much. i think im developing a crush. that might be a bit too weird, even for me. no, seriously, i really admire him, even if he was a criminal and all. he was higher than the government. what cant you like about a guy like that?! someday im going to rule the world. did you know that? i did. i plan on starting with, well, im not srue what to start with, but some place cool. maybe the internet. ha! like i could really do that. the internet is too powerful, and it doesnt have any form of governing whatsoever. one day the world is going to be like that. total anarchy but people will still be able to find a hole of their own and everyone would just get along. that would be awesome. im starting two more journals at pitas. ones a poetry and ones a somewhat intellectual rambling. intresting, huh? not really, but pretend anyway. thanks. i appriciate the effort.
..::satan//
Friday, June 30, 2000
09:10 a.m.
dude, my family is so evil. its really not fair that i dont even have a room here. theyree planning on shoving me into the basement when my crappy furniture comes. and it probably wont come any time this year. ive been waiting on it for like a month, and, well, its still not here. they all have rooms where theres a bed and tv and cool stuff like that and i have a trash bag of junk and a cement floor. plus, its freezing and theres spiders and dirt and leaves and ants. the one wall is all mildewy to a point where it just curved and the door has a huge hole in it from a knife and it doesnt even partialy close. but im really really pissed off for the fact that its empty! then all i wanted to do was curl up on somebodys floor last night but every time i went into someones room it was all like "get out!" i mean, do you have any clue what its like to be sitting in thw hallway at 1 am listening to your entire family sleeping away. its not fair and then they rub it in my face by constantly kicking me out. i havent actualy had a somewhat decent sleep in like a really really long time. at least a month. i mean, at my moms, my brother might annoy me with his stupid music and stoner friends but at least i have a bed. and the couch doesnt work. i mean, one: the living room is not the easiest place to sleep in. two: with that huge window its hard to sleep in the day because of all the light. i close it, 5 minutes later, my dad has it opened. grrr!!! send condolences to alizayana@chickmail.com...
..::hiccups//
Thursday, June 29, 2000
01:57 a.m.
so hows this for a better layout? i used al this time. i think its good to have a recignizable face as my logo, ecspecialy if its one that say 'i demand respect.' plus, i loved the relic hunter with his gun. that was a cool one. im going to use al in a whole layout for one of my sites, not sure which one, though. i know, i know, overboard. sorry. today i woke up at 6 at night. seriously. i went to bed at 7 am. then i woke up and looked at the clock and im like wow. i hate this whole log thing. im coming out to sound like a prep. ta he. im not, either. lots of people think i am. shana was the first to say it. thanks a lot. i think she was just mad at me, though. we always get into arguments. not anymore, because i never talk to her. she thinks i should go to whitehall. i think i should go to, well, i dont know where i should go. i told amanda frey that id go to lehighton and try out for the play/stage crew so she can gauk at andy. i dont know, though, i never met him. she might be over him, though. i havent had a crush for like a really long time, since, i supose, 5th grade. i dont know why, just havent, even if everyone thinks it is/was josh. josh is cool, and hes a really good friend, but thats it. so hes not my crush. now, how could i possibly be a prep and not be guy crazy? hmm... let me try and think of some of shanas reasons... well, now that i think of it, she didnt have any, just kept repeating "trust me, amanda, youve changed." ok. i dont know exactly what thats supposed to mean, or even vaguely. right now im printing al capones fbi record. well, the first 100 pages of it, anyway. i have a feeling ill get in trouble for 'wasting' all that ink. ah well.
..::water me//
Wednesday, June 28, 2000
09:53 a.m.
wow, already i have another crappy layout. i also made a new logo. i was going to use al capone, but didnt. my sister woke me up at 6 am because shes a bitch and then i came on my wonderful computer. its just about 10 now and i just finished this crappy layout. i really need help with layouts, but oh well. i also added the ceiling cam. intresting, huh? im going to bed now.
..::fire light//
Tuesday, June 27, 2000
11:12 p.m.
after some bickering, i finaly got on the computer again today. we had this chickeny soup thing for diner, and it was pretty good, and when i came out starving to death after my long sleep, my sister had already given all of the left overs to my cats. ill survive. i found an intresting link. its the official homepage of gaelicstorm, aka the band from titanic. i surfed that a bit. then i went onto the discworld mud. all i do there is talk to the fake charectors and such, and occasionaly bother people. and, i know, i really didnt want to have this as links, but look, now anyone can be literate! theres this site, bartleby.com, and its free novels to read online. thats great, because, actualy, id constantly visit drews script o rama and read the scripts instead of renting the movie. yes, im too cheap to spend a whole dollar at the store. well, i guess ive sold out into the link posting world. ah well.
..::another waste//
Tuesday, June 27, 2000
02:54 p.m.
i stayed up late last night, until 6 am, and woke up at 10, after the bickering of my siblings awakened me. with a yawn, i was up, and on my computer. i tried to set up a blog, tried so hard indeed, looked for a host and such, but no luck. the poor amanda was blogless. so, i decided to look at other peoples just to try and pretend as if i had one. then, wait, i saw in second line of one. 'not a blog, but a pita.' pita! pita! i was so enthusiastic as i clicked on the link, and now, here i am, hours later, writing my very third entry into my very own weblog. but its not a fuckin blog, though i wish it was. i also wish i had a new layout, one i didnt steal, and is a lot like the one from sketcher.org. i got that domain, if anyone cares, then i gave it away, like poison. i also visited death today, literaly, as on the discworld mud. humphry took me, and we spent some time in his home, waiting for osmeone to die. how kind, morbid, artistic. im still in need of a layout. if some kind soul would like to make me one, please, email me at alizayana@chickmail.com. i came across http://sadcore.pitas.com today. just stumbled upon it. i love the design, but for the record, would never steal it. i simply stole an html code, here, no graphics, or main ideas, or anything. so, im not even that ashamed about. yes, i steal html.
..::appoligies//
Tuesday, June 27, 2000
02:48 p.m.
im sorry, i really am. i didnt mean to steal a layout, it just kinda happened. i am sorry, but its here, and i really really like it so im not going to get rid of it until i have another one. sorry.
..::introduction//
Tuesday, June 27, 2000
11:28 a.m.
this would be my first entry. i hate the layout, but i cant really do anything about that, being im terrible at tables. if anyone out there can help. email me at alizayana@chickmail.com. id really love it if there was some good soul out there that would make me a new design. well, anyway, my names amanda steigerwalt and this is my new journal...